top of page
  • Kerri McKinney

But when I take a better look at myself, I should be happy that I'm nobody else

My goodness it has been a journey.

That's the thing about life though, right? It's a journey, not a destination. The same thing is true for your self-love journey too.

but-when-i-take-a-better-look-at-myself-i-should-be-happy-that-i-m-nobody-elseI used to say that my own self-love journey started back in January of 2017; however, that was the year I was ignited to start bringing all of my buried down, unknown trauma to the surface in very unhealthy and toxic ways. That time is now what I call my "self-love activation" period.

The actual Self-Love journey started back in 2020 before I even realized I was doing it. It wasn't until I recently started looking back through old pictures on my iPad that I began to see what I was doing.

I had started saving screenshots of empowering posts with quotes about taking better care of yourself and how to put yourself first. I began to download personal development books that I wanted to read that were recommended to me by other people. The other day I went to buy the incredible book The Body Keeps Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma on my kindle and was shocked to see that I had already purchased it on February 18th, 2020 - but I hadn't read one page.

I wasn't ready for the book yet, I wouldn't have been able to process or understand the material at that deep of a healing level like I can now.

I still had a long way to go.

2021 was when I hit my breaking point and quit my corporate job in June after completely burning myself out and realizing that I couldn't lead other people if I couldn't take care of myself first. This was the year that I dove deep into my spiritual learnings and practice, some days I was meditating 3-4 hours a day and I was part of a women's circle that focused heavily on psychic channeling and activations.

2021 was also the year that I really started healing my codependency wounds; I began to travel by myself and road-tripped across multiple states and back completely on my own, even stopping to camp by myself for the first time ever (it did not go well, that story is for another time).

Life was good, up until October 2021 when I realized I had been living a complete lie in my external world and my life imploded, quickly forcing me to unlock another layer of my self-love journey and figure out how to do life while loving the absolute shit out of myself through it all.

It was a rough few months.

2022 was the year of strength and surrender.

I moved into a new home after abruptly having to move from my old one only five months after moving in; I got divorced for a second time, where I represented myself during the very intense and soul-sucking court hearing and I actually won.

I downsized my material possessions and started learning how to live more simply as I struggled to make ends meet and lived more frugally then I ever could have imagined.

I also had to learn how to put my ego aside and reach out to ask for help, which is something I have always struggled severely with for so much of my life.

And most of all, I learned a strong lesson on what it means to truly surrender and trust that the Universe will always have your back -

Guess what? It did.

2023 is the year of expansion and growth.

The year started off a bit rocky; I was still living with no sense of security or stability which really took a toll on my nervous system and mental health. I also discovered that I still had a few lessons tied to past wounds to learn around discernment and choosing myself; I quickly caught on to the learnings that were being thrown my way and stopped the cycle from going any further.

Go me! 📣

The rest of 2023 is the year of stepping into my full authentic power and who I am truly meant to be, something I thought I was doing a lot more of last year when in reality I was still attached to trying to fix the past.

Admittedly I was also still trying to play the Savior mode, in the sweetest most well-intended way possible.

By doing that I was taking away from the precious energy that should have been being spent on myself and missing out on a lot of the love that my dear self needs and deserves. Today I am officially kicking off the start of my Self-Love Summer journey, and I'm committed to making up for the time I wasted last year in the most incredibly magical and powerful way while skyrocketing my healing journey in a way I cannot even yet imagine.

2023 is the year of being super intentional about who I share my energy with while I focus on only surrounding myself with those who truly light me up and make me want to be the best and most authentic version of myself.

I am so grateful you are here with me to come along for the ride. 🙏🏼

Sending so much love and light,

- K

'Cause when I take a better look at myself
I should be happy that I'm nobody else
I mean really when I look in the mirror
And see everything clearer
I am happy that I'm nobody else

52 views0 comments
Post: Blog2_Post
bottom of page